My Song and...

Dedicated to all my friends ^^ You are more than i can wish for on this day ^^ May you have a happy day ahead~~



YOUNHA - My Song and ....
she sing in english eventhough she is korean ^^ love this song

I made a song for you, my friend
I made a song that I will sing for you
Filling my life with many beautiful lights
And a thousand melodies
You are my paradise

I made a song for you, my dream
I made a song that I will sing for you, my friend
Falling in love with every part of your life
Until the end of time
I love you more
than my life

I wanna know you more
When you call me an angel
When you closely look into my eyes

Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna give you more than words ever say
Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart

Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna let my words be true to the end of time
Cause I believe you’ll never forget
and I won’t forget the song in my heart

Every time when I was down
You always came around
And you love all the lights in my life

I am gonna sing forever
I am gonna sing forever

Close your eyes
I wanna give you more than words ever said
Cause I believe in you
And my song will fill the air when we’re apart

Even though my love for you may fade away
I wanna let my words be true to the end of time
Cause I believe you’ll never forget
And I won’t forget this song in my heart

I wanna sing for you my friend
I wanna sing for you with all my heart
I wanna sing for you my dream
I wanna sing for you my..

recipe : macaroni & cheese

well~ i'm sorry for the late post about the recepie. I'm kinda busy last week with my parents coming over with the addition the nerve-wrecking final exams at the same time. But it is finally over and i can rest my head a bit. Owh~ i dont know why, but the past few days i'm on a shopping frenzy mania and cant seem to cool down. I dont wish to look at my account balance right now *hahahha* At time like this I wish I am rich ^^ hahahah~

okay~ enough of my materialistic side

Here is the recipe for macaroni and cheese

1 cup macaroni
1/2 cup cheese sauce/cheddar cheese * in my case i seem to love mozarella cheese, so i them instead ^^ *
2 or 3 frankfurtes
1/2 teaspoon parmesan cheese
1 pinch dried oregano
4 buttery crackers / bread crumbs
1/2 cup milk

1. Boil the macaroni in hot water until al-dante, cook the sliced frankurters (i cook them both together in 1 pot ^^ yeah i know, i am lazy ^^)
2. Then toss away all the water
3. Start layering macaroni & frankfuters with parmesan cheese& mozarella cheese and also add the oregano. (You can layer them lasagne style, or just mix them together)
4. Add the milk and use mozarella cheese & the crushed crackers as the toppings
5. Bake at 185 degrees celcius in oven for 30 mins

THERE ^^ all done~ you can change the recipie at your will & preference cause i dont stick 100% with any recepie i have cause i tend to experiment a bit ^^ just like science lab =p

Have fun with cooking guys * i hope they turned out well *

owh... i'll be doing my internship for half year with daimler chrystler in pahang this summer. ^^ Wish me luck.

all about baking and eating satisfaction

it is still examination period and after today's paper i really feel the urge to bake something. Maybe because i finally have the time to do something i love ^^ Chocolate brownies and Apple Pie are the only things that I learn and know how to bake in my first 2 years here after seeing zira make them. After that I didnt have the courage to try other recipies. Only 4 months back that i start loving baking cakes , muffins and such and i went into baking like crazy. Now i think i've fallen in love too deeply with baking~ It is too late to stop me now ... hehe

So i just finished baking my vanilla and chocolate muffins tonight and they turned out great. I'm totally happy and I even have the thought of running a muffin business rather than being an engineer... hehehe (just kidding~ =p) . My first try with muffin didnt really worked out that well and i managed to work it out with this second try. So yay~ for me ^^

Anyway~ because i've been sooooo into baking lately than never before, it is time to post the pictures of my masterpieces ^^ (Of course, it is obvious that I only bake things that i love to eat ^^)

First: Today's vanilla and chocolate muffin with choc chips



in the end , 18 muffins ready to be eaten ^^


Second : Last week's Apple Pie

Apple Pie is the first thing that i learned to bake since studying in germany. Thanks to zira who teach me how and giving me the recipie. I don't know how many times have I baked this, but this is the first time the crust turned out this great. (well.. there are still rooms for improvements, so next time i'll do better)

cross section view


Third : Vanilla and Chocolate (with Choc chips) Cookies

I really love eating the cookies and I am amazed that i get them right on the first try. Maybe I should make them more later on ^^ (They are really a great snack when watching movies LOL)



Fourth : Macaroni and Cheese (with sausages)



Fifth : Beef Lasagne with Mushrooms



Sixth : Raspberry Cheesetart

This was during the time where I went cheesecake-mania for a while. I dont really like cheesecake in my 21 years of living (I do prefer choc cake much more than cheesecake), but it changed last year. I even craving for cheesecake and even bought them whenever I was in town. I wonder what caused this change in me? I really dont even have a concrete answer ^^ But one thing I know now , "Goodbye choc cakes, Welcome cheesecakes !!! "

With & Without toppings



Seventh : Raspberry Cheesecake

also as Anez's belated birthday cake (joint venture project with my aunt who came to visit)


That was all the things that i baked from middle Dec 08 until today. Quite a number eh? Well~ i've also baked cheesecupcakes with fruits in that duration, but i didnt have a picture of it. Now it is like a habbit to take pictures of new recepies that i tried, but sometimes i do tend to forget ^^

The main reason of why i do bake a lots of things in this past 2 months is because of exam stress. I do release my stress by baking things that i want to eat ^^ and of course , winter is the time where i eat a lot and craving lots of fancy stuff (that explains why i gained weight a bit XDDDD)

Anyway~ if anyone want the recipie, i am more than happy to share it with you ^^ just ask.

One more exam to go~~~~ yeah ^^ and then HOLIDAY \(^^)/

starry starry night

So Deep Is The Night
So deep is the night
No moon tonight
No friendly star
To guide me with it's light

Be still my heart
Silent less my love should be returning
From a world, far apart

So deep is the night
Oh lonely night
On broken wings
My heart has taken flight
And left a dream

In my dream our lips are blending
Will my dream be never ending
Will your memory haunt me till I die

Alone am I, deep into the night
Waiting for the light
Alone am I, I wonder why
Deep is the night

Chopin Etude OP 10-3.
Chanson de l'adieu

even heaven cries

a song from a german pop trio group "Monrose" . This song reminds me of the past. I used trying hard to be someone who is perfect and can be proud of because of my family. but sometimes, by trying too hard , i forget who i really am. I mean, gradually i become someone else than being myself. To be yourself is a hard thing to do. That is what i used to think. I am not a genius , but I work hard for the good results.

I think it is okay for not being perfect all the times. Before, I didnt even know the meaning of failure because I always aim for the best and I'll cry when my results is not as i expected. studying in Germany change my perception of being perfect and gave me a big slap on the face. I've failed my papers many times and I cant accept the reality. There are times where I want to quit and run back home, because my pride has been shattered to pieces. People may see me as an intelligent person, but i am really not. At that time I'm afraid of what others might think of me. How will they react when they know i've been failing my exams. I imagined lots and lots of things until I become so scared without knowing what to do next.

But when I think I should be myself and accept that part as my flaw, only then did I calm down. Yes, I just need to be myself and the imperfection is a part of me. I just need to accept it and live proudly as who I am. Maybe there are others who didnt live honestly as themself not because they dont want to, but because of the situation they are in.

it is okay to doubt yourself sometimes, but i think everything will be alright if you just believe in yourself ^^

There are times when you feel that you don't know where you fit in
So you hide what is real even when it hurts you pretend
To be the one that you think everybody wants you to be
No one sees

The one you really are
But you don't have to hide your heart
Cause nothing by you needs to change
Sometimes it might seem hard
your whole world falls apart
Just know that when you feel that way

Even heaven cries
Everybody cries
It's ok to doubt
Yourself sometimes
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you feel inside
It's alright, it's alright
Cause even heaven cries

When you look in the mirror, and you don't see picture of perfect

what they say break your heart and make you feel that you´re not worth it
Wanna disappear, hide the tears, still playing make believe
So no one sees

Even heaven cries
Everybody cries
It's ok to doubt
Yourself sometimes
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you fear inside
It's alright, it's alright
Cause even heaven cries

You're not alone
Don't be ashamed
To let your feelings show
You should realize
You're special who you are
In time you're gonna see...

don´t you realize

Even heaven cries
Everybody cries
It's ok to doubt
Yourself sometimes
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you fear inside
It's alright, it's alright
Cause even heaven cries

pastries & cupcakes

lately i've been obsessed with baking and i just finished baking my raspbery cheese tart just now
it is my first try but the results are quite okay ^^ putting aside the thickness of the crust =p
i just need to practice more on making the crust *yeah, making pie crust is a tricky work*
by the way, who doesnt love pastries n cupcakes?
i just love it so much ^^
i love to eat it and i want to make it myself

next on the list to bake : choc chips cookies ^^ * lets go shopping tomorrow~~*

these days of which exam is causing a big stress on my mind
with baking , it saves me from all the hectic for a while
maybe people think it is more stressing than studying
but hey~ if it is your interest, everything will be a bliss

i suddenly start wondering that i should take a change in my profession
and become a pastry chef instead ^^
then i can move to paris and learn to be one over there (i wish..)
owh~ how i love the scenery in paris . . . .
but instead, i'm here cramming my head with all the formulas n tables
in this technology leading land of germany
complaining can't change anything at this point though . . .

by the way, exam starts this friday and heck~
tuesday is almost up, just a few days more to go until D-day
to make the situation worst, my exam starts with THE killer paper
what a nightmare

anyway~ i really wanna be good at making pastries
(on the other hand, i really wanna be good in many more such as photography, writing, PSing, and many many more on the list. By the way, i'm not fond of gardening *hahahah* let all the gardening goes to you =p)

song in my head day in and day out : SHINee - Stand By Me ^^

of wishing and hope

why do we often wish for something?
normally we wish because we need something, such as help or objects
but at times, we do make wishes because we are afraid
afraid of not knowing of what will happen
so we wish that things will unveil in a way that we always hope for

even not all of our wishes do come true
we still keep on wishing because sometimes they do
and every now and then, we realise
we do have a long list of wish, waiting to be wished
and the process will never ends,
unless we do not believe in wishing anymore

for me, a wish is a sign of hope
when we blow candles on birthdays and have a wish
or when we are in deep trouble and make a wish
we are actually hoping for something to come true
we are waiting for some hope lighting the way

so unless we give up on hope
we will never end up not wishing for something

tonight, let's wish upon the star

i wish " .................... "